Month: June 2018

A View from the Top Bunk

When I was a kid, I slept on the top bunk after a short stint on the bottom one. My elder brother, six years to be exact, had the authority, then, to make these kinds of decisions. Besides, he got to bed much later than I and didn’t want to disturb me. As if masturbation every night at midnight wasn’t a deterrent for sleep.

What exactly was he doing down there? my young mind thought. Moaning and thrashing about as if he was down there with some pretty young thing. I never asked. He never told.

Actually, I already knew. Before the bunk beds, my brother and I slept in the same queen bed for about six years—long enough for him to introduce me to his midnight issues. But with me, his affair fell right after my early bedtime.

A soft whisper. “Can I… you know?” He played with my hair and caressed my 8-year-old butt. Sometimes he would kiss me on the neck… begging… and breathing.

Ah, the raw memories of sexual abuse. They would rob me of sleep until about 10 years ago, when I took my childhood back.

I don’t demonize my brother. I don’t fault my father and mother for not protecting me from a horny brother, who probably had been sexually abused before me. I simply give none of what happened in the past any negative thought. It is almost as if it was another lifetime, completely.

Everything that had happened in my past had a purpose—a divine reason—even the horrible nightmare things, like the queen-sized bed.

My mom recently told me that my brother thinks that I’m the only sibling in the family who cares about him. I don’t know if he’s correct about that. I simply wonder about what he thinks? How he thinks or deals with the memories. I’m more curious than caring, to be honest. But, I never ask. He never tells.

Sometimes silence heals if you understand the peace that can come with it.

I am an actor by trade. I have learned to embrace the truth of other characters besides me. In my search for each character’s authentic reality, I often make up amazing pasts to build a strong back-story, it’s called in the acting world. I have more fun with this part of the process than I should. It’s my time to rewrite the words of the author so they fit me more snugly. This back-story helps me relate to the character’s malevolence, depravity, or intricate love they bring to the stage or screen.

I left the theater for a long time, because I felt as if I was avoiding my own back-story to play with other’s lives. Acting was an easier choice than reality. Plus, an added bonus was the applause at the end of the night. Praise and adulation for making people believe you were someone you’re not. And I got paid for it, while most of the world does this every day, every minute, every second.

Honestly, I’m tired of so many people living their lives asleep or in total avoidance.

When will we all stop to be still? When will we give thought to the purpose of our humanity and make some sense of the maelstrom of our pasts?

It’s in the undoing that you become one step closer to your spiritual purpose on Earth.

Take a breath. Take a moment. Let silence draw you to the path of total understanding. I have and am finally at peace.

Don’t let another day pass, acting as if none of it happened, every jot and tittle matters more that Who You Are!


Please follow and like us:

The New Stage of Human Development… What’s next?

From the annals of the bible, the “Book of Revelations,” and now some true channelers of the Ra group (like the wonder of Edgar Cayce), we all know that we are on the cusp of something cataclysmic. We can see it in the condition of Earth crying out from its molten core, or the washing and blowing away 0f all that seeks to abuse it, and consuming what’s left with conflagration, it seems.

We can see this same storm forming in the children, who are so much more aware and intelligent than we ever were, now crying out for social justice because the adults have either lost their fight or don’t have the courage. It’s as if the children came to this world for the prime purpose to set consciousness on fire.

We can see change in the government vs. the people—who is fighting for what’s right with consistent cries from unjust behavior and now demanding justice, truth, and transparency!

What steps are we all willing to take next to draw us to a totally new paradigm in which the lion lays with the lamb? 

Are we seeing in the world arena a shaking up of power as in “The Book of Revelations”? Do you have absolutely no idea what will come next? Or are you seeing that all that stirs and can be shaken will eventually collapse? What camp are you settling into or are you still on the fence, carefully trying to balance your life as you once knew it?

I ponder these thoughts daily. I ask my nieces and nephews how they feel when they go to school. Are they frightened? Do they feel that what they see on the news in something that they might experience? I want to know their hearts.

I was a life coach and minister for so long that asking the hard questions to anyone I know is my duty. People should not live their lives asleep or afraid or simply in a cyclical pattern similar to what you see on the television program “Westworld.” We are not robots. We are consciousness embodied in human casing that has a purpose. Finding that purpose is so important at this point of our lives.

I urge all that are reading this to take some contemplative time everyday. Don’t be afraid of the silence. Let is draw you in and lead you to your next steps in life. You will feel as I do—a newness of thought and wonder—a sensation of excitement for what will happen next; instead of fearing the next moment, the next month’s bills, and dying from diseases you probably brought upon yourself from eating what has been fed to you.

We must wake up to all that scares us. What exactly are we frightened of? If you believe in a benevolent Spirit, what could be more contraindicating then being afraid when you believe that the result of world will end in peace and will always draw us back to love. But you must be awake to see!

Being awake cannot happen unless you spend time moving past the confines of the body and move into a meditative place. These moments will clear your mind, inspire you to new truth, and also recharge your physical and mental batteries that are so depleted from all the chaos all around us each day.

If you need some help with learning to meditate, you can read my book on meditation; you can go on YouTube and listen to some of my meditations and work with them to begin to understand how to get to the place of quiet, or you can find someone like me to help you learn the process. It’s a practice. It is like taking your first yoga class. You can’t expect to put your palms to the floor when you haven’t bent over in 20 years.

You will be amazed at how even 5 minutes of silence will change your life! I think of this time as swimming underwater. The outside world silences and the universal love that awaits all of us stands waiting at the door of an underwater cave from which you emerge able to breathe new life.

Join me in a meditation if you like:


Or give me a call at 954-253-6493 and book an appointment on line or in person to open your life to this new paradigm. I can help.

Please follow and like us:

The Opacity of Human Nature

The Definition of Opacity: In a painting or photography program such a InDesign or Photoshop, the user is able to create the amount of opacity, basically, its level of blocking an object or a color that is behind. For example, if you put a completely opaque picture over top of a blue background, you will see no blue. But if you change the #opacity of the front picture to 75%, you will see 25% blue bleeding through the picture. If you change the picture to 20% opacity, that picture or color beneath it will bleed through to the point where you may not even recognize the picture on top as it once was. Also, the places in the picture that are lighter will be filled with the image beneath it. The lighter the exterior, the more vulnerable to the opacity shift.

In so many ways as humans we have the ability to be completely opaque. In fact, of of us move through life never showing what’s beneath the surface. We only show our human nature and cover 100% of the authenticity and Spirit that is within us. In negative situations, people like Donald Trump can be 100% opaque, hiding the evil and narcissism within.

In juxtaposition to the negative, the positive humans have the ability to lessen our opaque exteriors and let the light and love that is within us show through our human veneer. As never before, humans are realizing that we are not “humans with a spirit,” but “Spirits, housed in a human body.”

As we become more aware of our spiritual core and the purpose within, we can let that purpose, love, and compassion shine through us in places that are most vulnerable to opacity changes, like our eyes, our hands, and our hearts.

We can turn up the Spirit by turning down our hard human exterior simply by our ability to become observers of our humanness.The more we can see the human behavior that we exhibit, the more we are able to control how much we show at any given time or our more loving interiors.

So, how can you tell what’s inside a human being? Is he or she authentic and real? This can be seen only by his or her ability to make the exterior human transparent (by changing his or her own opacity). The more transparent you become to the world, the more the light or the darkness within will shine through.

My hope—and the hope of Ra and the positive influences trying to save the world from turning negative and becoming annihilated—is that when we expose the light and the love by decreasing our human opacity, we will eventually use the magnetic light waves of love to draw all humanity back to Source or God. In turn, we can release the magic power of love into the Earth to draw it to a heavenly, more loving and compassion state.

How do you begin this process in your own life?

Today, recognize how much of you is a hard veneer that must do task after task to stay humanized and avoid looking at the potent, negative changes in the world. Realize you can stay in your own little world and can avoid the terror of the world completely on the exterior. But what about your interior fear? Will it not eventually show through your thinning human exterior? Will your opacity change and shift as you are unable hold in the darkness that lurks within?

Remember, the darker the color behind the picture, the more the colors will bleed through the vulnerable places in your human picture. So, you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders. You hold the peace and security of your family in your heart. You watch the news constantly and wonder when your children will be in the school with the gunman holding them hostage… Is it not time to change what’s inside of you to light? to become a source of positive change to the world, not a negative polarized only by his or her internal fears?

What would happen if you meditated everyday and believed in the possibility of change in the world—the ideas that God and Love could overthrow the worst enemy of humanity? What would happen if you could hold fast to this light and let it shine through your humanity—change your human opacity to 25% and let your authentic, God-self shine through. You plus me could change the color of the world to the light that is within us and allow the Earth to polarize toward the positive.

We could save our planet, if enough of us bend in the direction of transparency.

Become a less opaque human! Turn down the opacity of your hard humanness, and turn up the power of the loving Spirit within!

It’s time to shift.


Please follow and like us:

Enjoy this blog? Please spread the word :)