Our primal instinct in life is to be loved, I have absolutely no doubt. Acceptance is at the core of this need. Yet, we consistently try to conform to what other people want us to be. We deny our own inner wisdom. We choose from column A of choices made by our parents and mentors. We even will neglect our own drive to manifest greatness at the risk of making people feel uncomfortable with our light. Why is this so?
As a child I watched many things going on around me that I didn’t understand. Discovering what made people like and admire others intrigued me.
When I noticed someone gaining attention from an act of kindness, a special talent, or getting straight A’s on a report card, you had better believe I did my best to achieve all of those accolades. The way to being accepted and also the need to be accepted were at the core of my subconscious. This functionality of my life manifested early on and continued until I became self-actualized. In other words: Until I was able to see my humanness apart from my highest consciousness, I had no idea that my entire life was based on these subconscious principals that I needed to be loved by others and I would do just about anything to get their love.
The moment I discovered my dysfunction, I prayed that I would have the power and strength to change what did not serve me and accept the possibility of a new and better future with the help of Spirit’s guidance. This is the moment a whirlwind—albeit a tempest—began in my life.
- Friends began to fall away.
- Careers shifted.
- New people came into my life.
- The haters and judgers left.
Those who had the capacity to love arrived. They were people I didn’t expect, because they were not in my old paradigm.
Acquiescing to the newness of this life was quite difficult, at first, until I began to see the amazingly sweet fruits of this change. At first, all I could see was the incredible loss of all the things that I thought were dear. I didn’t understand why people I thought I loved deeply would leave me and even religious leaders betrayed me.
One day in the middle of a lawsuit from my business, brought on by an alcoholic lawyer who decided that I should be responsible for the damage of her car during a hail storm while she was in session. She also decided that, even though she arrived with a hangover for each session, that I should be in charge of the atmosphere around me and keep everything silent while she tried to get quiet inside her mind.
For some strange reason, instead of doing what my lawyer told me to do, what I normally would have done to make things soft and easy and just repay her money, I chose to challenge her in court.
I didn’t hire a lawyer. I didn’t worry much about my reasoning for fighting her. I simply trusted my gut instinct to stand up for what was right, instead of getting stepped on. The night before I was expected in court, I helped a friend take photographs at a socialite party, because she wasn’t feeling well. One of the people I took a picture was a judge.
Who do you think was the judge in the circuit court where I ended up the next morning? He was so kind that he actually looked through the records I had in a manila folder, quickly assessed the problem, and came to a quick conclusion that I had won the case based on something I didn’t even realize was law. Slam-dunk, I won the case in the first five minutes.
How did this event in my life change me?
I realized that something inside or outside of me was watching, kind of like an overseer. This overseer was a part of me, the strongest part of me, a part of me that was connected to The Whole. As a result I began to get in touch with this overseer in meditation. The more time I spent in meditation, quiet and alone with myself, God, and the creative forces of the universe, the more I realized what my purpose had become.
When you discover why you are here on the Earth, you let get of almost all of your fear, especially the fear of not being accepted. As we know from history, Jesus was rejected by so many of the people he trusted and loved at the end. He understood his destiny. Therefore, he had the power and strength to endure an amazingly difficult last two weeks of his life. Metaphorically, even if you don’t believe the bible story, you can see that from the worst situation, he found his power and connection to the Divine. He rose from his earth body and was embraced by Divine Love and Angels.
This, too, can happen for you at any given moment, when you choose to let go of the noise in your life, those things that you think are important, and focus in on something greater, your divine purpose.
Here is a prayer to say to discover this unique part of your being:
Divine Love, I know that there is only One Mind in the Universe. This mind is part of me, as I was created by It. My very being has purpose. My life has purpose. Everyday of my life is leading me to that Divine Light that will show me the way to peace. I pray that my heart will open, this moment, to this love. At the same time, I release all that no longer serves me. I give Spirit, the angels, and all of the unseen forces of the universe permission to take the reins of my life and guide me to peace beyond understanding. I release this intention and power of my words to the One Infinite Mind, Divine Intelligence, and the Laws of the Universe. And so be it!
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Also, below is a link to a meditation that may help you on your path toward your divine goal and peace. Lots of love,
- Pigeons and Black Birds
- When Love Just Won’t Work!