When you grow up poor, never having enough for yourself, your family, even enough to fill your small belly at dinnertime, you sometimes forget how different others feel about giving. Perhaps, wealthy philanthropists are simply expected to give a certain amount of their money as a tax break. Some who have become rich after a life of poverty give more easily. Some people growing up used to the idea that a tithe if expected of God to the church. I walked to Catholic church myself, most Sundays. Perhaps, a neighbor would drive me. I watched as people put offerings in the basket, but I never quite found the place in my heart that became committed to the idea that there was a God-figure out there in the Universe expecting a payback from anything I received. I tried many times to simply tithe blindly or plan to give in certain ways. Every time, I felt empty and as if was an organic act. For me, it seems that my heart had to learn to let go of the insecurity of not having enough to learn to give generously.
We forget that generosity is a learned behavior. Often times, generosity is halted by old beliefs that you will never have enough—that you must hold on tightly to what you have, so that you will never feel poor again. I get it. I’ve been there. Here is a meditation that respects this mindset and offers a prayer and treatment for a change of heart. (continue reading below…)
Video of the Meditation Below:
There was a time in my life when I quit my job in New York to study the scriptures. I was on a completely Christian path then. I remember praying about my needs. During a fast, I received a vision to go to the Actor’s Equity Building. On the 16th floor was a receptionist’s office that had a list of perspective jobs for out-of-work actors. I was told in the vision to apply for the third job in the stack of jobs. The vision was very specific.
I listened to the angels or spirit that was encouraging and leading my heart into my calling, my perfect place on this Earth. I immediately saw that this job was a part-time job that paid $8 an hour. Certainly this was not enough to even pay for my expenses in NYC let alone classes. But, I didn’t pay attention to my brain. I listened to the guidance I received—for the first time in my life. I wanted to live by faith alone.
The job had already been taken by the time I applied, but the owner interviewed me anyway. He was so impressed with me that he called the other person and told him that he wouldn’t need his services. This same man, my boss, was also the owner of a recording studio. It was from the generosity of this same man that I recorded my first Spiritual Demo of music that I had written.
This is a simple story, but a powerful example of changing the course of how you are led. When you release and let go of that which no longer serves you, you make room for Spirit to begin filling your life with what matters. I even was allowed to use the studios that I rented out to people to teach privately, voice and piano, which made me more money than I had had in many months living in the city.
Your prosperity and Spirit’s leading in your life may take a few years of planting seeds and nurturing them for the substance of your prayers to manifest, but it will happen. Trust me. I am living proof of this.
This meditation is an extension of this belief. I hope you enjoy it and encourage friends to join our meditation group.